A Glimpse of What Might Have Been

Last Friday my mom offered to keep both of the boys at her house for the night. For the first time since they were born, I went to sleep without my usual stop in their room to check on a little boy or two. It’s been over 4 years since we went to sleep with only Scott, Juliana and I in the house.

Juliana was almost an only child by choice and then on my birthday in 2008 I realized that I was a year older than I thought and I suddenly knew that I wanted another child. I was still getting used to the idea of another child when I found out I was pregnant. I was so sick and still getting used to being pregnant when we found out we were expecting twins, and then the news that they were both boys. Before we knew it they were here and boy oh boy did our lives change.

Last Friday I waited for Juliana to arrive home on the bus and we spent some time talking about her day. She was excited to find out that she had Mommy and Daddy to herself for the night. She dressed up to go out to dinner with us and enjoyed the extra attention. When we went home, she went up to bed and I went shopping. Shopping alone on a Friday evening because I didn’t have to worry about the boys going to sleep and I wasn’t exhausted from dealing with the boys through dinner and baths and bedtime.

Saturday morning Juliana stayed in bed until 8:00 (a time we had agreed to the night before). I slept all night without any children visiting me and no interruption until 8:00. That hasn’t happened since the boys were born. It was a relaxing morning and the house was so quiet.

Without the boys, it was quiet and I got some sleep. It was easy to go out to dinner and run errands – the evening required less planning. I was able to relax.

But the house was so quiet and I missed the extra little faces to kiss good night. The best part of my day is when my little ones want to quietly snuggle. I can live with less sleep in exchange for snuggles and hugs and “I Love Yous” and kisses good night. We may have had a glimpse of what might have been with a family of 3, but I’m so happy we didn’t keep things that way.


Below – this is what it looked like when I tried to take a picture of the two of them on the last day of preschool.










1 comment to A Glimpse of What Might Have Been

  • oh jen, that one photo of both boys holding hands with their mouths wide open is just so perfect! great capture.
    and yaaaaaaaaaaay for you getting a little sleep! xoxo